beach life

summer's almost here. i'm so excited, we might be going to puerto galera this weekend. haven't been for years! the sea has always held a special place in my heart. i don't know why. it's good that i know how to swim too. it makes for a fun time at the beach. i hope we can go kayaking this time. been wanting to try it for the longest time.

the first time i went to galera was in the mid-nineties. can you believe it? this was before white beach became "malate-like." it was very rustic and provincial then. after that, i wanted to go there every summer. it seems it's harder and harder to have a relaxing time there especially in the peak months of summer. i hope it's not too crowded yet since it's still february.

this picture was taken in zambales. i'm so lucky to have married a guy who has a close relative who lives near a public beach. the sand is not white at all, but the water is clear and the beach fairly clean. i guess it's because only local residents swim here, there's no resort yet. have you noticed that the more resorts/tourists on the beach, the dirtier it gets?

the story of us

we met at work. not that original i know. we were just yosi buddies at first. he waited for me during break time so we could smoke together. he filled up my water bottle when it's goin empty. we didn't talk that much about personal stuff, it was always about work more than anything. i was single then, and didn't expect to meet anybody interesting enough to be a boyfriend. i thought he was already in a relationship because he was older and nicer than most of the guys at work. i treated him like a buddy who's always just around. our first date was amazing. we just stayed in a restaurant and talked the night away. we discovered we had so much to talk about even after a year of being friends. i felt special again in his eyes. it's a first time for me to be friends with a guy for so long before being romantically involved. i usually know the first time i see a guy if i'm attracted to him or not. to make the long story short, we ended up marrying each other. exactly one year ago from yesterday, we were civilly wed. 6 months from today, we'll also celebrate our church wedding anniversary. to make things a bit clearer, the housemate i was referring to in my previous posts is actually my husband. bet you've figured that out by now.

feelin' fine

yep, feeling quite good today. must be because i've been kind of productive this past weekend. i stayed over in QC for 2 days. went home on sunday but first met up with Jay in Galleria. bought additional memory for my phone. finally, i can store more music and pictures on it. we also tried out a new fastfood restaurant called uncle john's i think it was. we were dismayed to find a foreign object in my soda so we had to have them replace it with a fresh one. it just goes to show that you can't be complacent with the food being served in restos. even the pricey ones might not be up to par with hygienic food preparation.

my sister and i stayed up late into the night just sharing stories and catching up. i played with my pamangkins (nephew/niece) as expected. also exchanged home improvement tips with my good old mom. didn't think the day would come when my mom and i can bond over these things. i've mostly ignored her nagging in the past about how to do things around the house. i thought i couldn't be bothered with it, what with my frenetic single life. well, now i can't deny the fact that i look to her for advice when it comes to family and home matters.

hopefully, i'll be employed by february. i need to, or else i'll go crazy with boredom. there's still a few things in my to-do-while-jobless list that i haven't done yet. maybe i can finish them before i start working.

all in all, it turned out to be a fun and full weekend.

more mundane thoughts

i googled my blog today and it didn't come up in the first 4 pages. maybe i should change my title to make it more searchable. i'm sort of a rookie in this world of blogging, html and all the other techy stuff. i don't have the patience to study how a site works and all that. jay can't get why i don't have the natural curiosity about stuff. i don't know. i think i easily get bored (or lazy) with things in general, especially now that i'm older. i'm also kind of egotistical in a way that i always think everything's quite easy to learn if i give it my full attention.

the reason why i didn't have any entries the last few days, was because i was sick. i had a fever and a bad cold. to top it off, jay and i had a huge fight sunday night. didn't mention it on monday because i was trying to forget it ever happened. it's one of those petty quarrels that seem so trivial when you look back on it. we've learned from it, now our relationship is stronger. i hope.

oh yeah, it's the weekend again! i will definitely have time to catch up with my family in QC, as i'm going there tonight. i still feel that i've got 2 homes. i know i have my own now, though still incomplete. a part of me feels like it's still living with the people i've grown up with. i've missed the kids (don't they look cute in their superhero costumes?) , though i realize that i've overcome being too attached to them in a way. i want to have my own life now, my own sense of being, so that they'll have a more enriching experience when they're with me.

well, 'til monday then.

me, myself and i

didn't do much this weekend, as you can imagine. my housemate and i didn't have anwhere to go so we just stayed at home. went out for a couple of hours to buy some grocery. we got so caught up doing household chores that we didn't have time to talk or touch base with each other.

i realize now that to be jobless is to have no purpose in life. i'm so isolated here, having no friends to talk to, and my family living 3 hours away. the only friend i can count on these days is my housemate, who has his own troubles occupying his mind. i think he's sensing that i am getting restless and unsatisfied. maybe if he was a girl, he would understand me more. as it is, he is sort of frustrated with my frustrations. he thinks i'm just making it more difficult on myself by moping around the house instead of occupying my time with more useful things.

thing is, i don't know how to motivate myself. i've always needed somebody to back me up. be enthusiastic for me. encourage me to move on. i don't know how i can change this about myself. i need to help myself get out of this rut. i can't count on anyone or anything to do this for me. it's really just me, myself and i.

a bum's life

is it friday already? been wearing the same pair of sweat pants for one whole week. been doing the same things everyday. get out of bed, watch some tv, eat breakfast, go online. when i get tired of that, i'll go back to bed, get up in time to cook dinner, watch tv, then go online again. before i know it, it's time for bed again. i'm so bored out of my mind i could scream!

living a bum's life ain't easy. i've arranged and rearranged my closet countless times, i swear my clothes are color-coded and organized according to the wet and dry season! i have an endless to-do list that i keep adding to, yet the house still looks the same, and there seems to be no improvement in my life.

i've noticed i've increased my dosage of smokes too. i tried to quit before, said to myself i'll quit at age 30. seems i don't have enough will power yet. so now you know my age. well, i'm still the same as when i was 20. still the same old me. still the procastinator, the late-comer, the happy-go-lucky type. go ahead, say it. i'm reprehensible.

don't get me wrong, i do apply for jobs. online that is. i do get scheduled for interviews, especially for the call center agent positions. even when i didn't apply for it! well, i'm not going back to being an agent, not if i can help it. you see, i have this idea of having this perfect job, you know. one that is close to my house, not that stressful, and is interesting enough to sustain my enthusiasm. oh, and it won't be so bad to have a boss that would keep me motivated and harness my potential too. is there such a job out there for me, or for anyone for that matter? maybe one of these days i'll get it. one of these days...

starbucks

what's the big fuss over this coffee? this branded coffee swept the philippines like a storm maybe 6 or so years ago, and it's here to stay. i tried it once, and i got hooked right away. i started with the cappucino, and now i always order the coffee frappucino. "one venti coffee frap please." it's really good, especially if you want to cool down a bit, bum around, and have a smoke or two. me and my friends, even my family, would go there after a movie, drinks at a bar, or after eating out. and also, where else but here, can you brush shoulders with foreigners, speak in english, and hang out with your "barkada" like you were in some rich foreign country, right? never mind the astronomically high prices of these flavored, ice-blended, or simple brewed coffee. it's pay-day anyway. or, i'm celebrating the start of the christmas season. or the unbeatable excuse: i'm gonna start budgeting my money starting tomorrow. yeah right.

my cousin who lived in baguio city before, was a barista for a year. he now thinks he's some kind of coffee guru. he claims that he knows how to make coffee in such a way as to have a customer come back and specifically ask for him. hmm...maybe he mixes something else in there besides coffee beans when he prepares them.

last year, i tried weaning myself from this addictive concoction. my housemate and i made an agreement to go here when we're with other friends only. we figure, if we can discipline ourselves to just go for a dunkin donuts coffee when we feel like kicking back with a cup and some smokes, then we'd get to save...let me see...lots of money! but then, where would we be able to lounge around while sipping, smoking and people-watching at the same time, but here at these starbucks stores? it seems all of 'em have an al fresco area just for coffee-smoke-addicts like myself. if i get filthy rich, i'd have a starbucks bar inside my own house. how's that for being extravagant?

cooking

made this dish from our left-over spaghetti, not too long ago. didn't know how to cook anything at all except for rice or fried eggs not too long ago too. maybe it's because i've been a free-loader at my parents' house until i was in my late late 20's. makes you wonder how i managed that huh?

but now, i can cook adobo, sinigang, tinola, along with some simple pasta recipes. looks like i've been domesticated against my will. well, not really. i quite enjoy cooking. the meal planning is the hard part. budgeting the grocery money can also sometimes give me a migraine.

if you're a slacker like me, you'd understand where i'm coming from. suddenly you find yourself living on your own, thinking up of ways on how to spend your housemate's hard-earned money wisely. i wish there were endless opportunities out there on how to stretch the budget so that you would still have enough to spend on movies, starbucks and "malling."

my housemate has left me an hour ago for his night shift. and now the night is stretching before me, with just this blog-writing and maybe channel surfing later on. hmm...maybe i will be a slacker all my life.